I got good and familiar with the wall yesterday. You know that giant one we all hit from time to time? Yup, that one. The wall that no matter what I did I just couldn't go over, around, under, and certainly not through. The wall I thought just existed for other people, not over-achieving little ol' me. The wall that separated the hard, cold facts of reality from my happy, magical land of "heck yeah! I can totally do that!"
I looked around at my ever growing pile of started but not finished projects, the stack of laundry so high I had to mount a red light to ward of passing airplanes, and the dust bunnies who had grown to dust elephants. April 4 is the craft fair. There is just no way I am going to be ready in time. So I gave myself the "responsible adult lecture" and I let it go. Poof. Besides, I can safely and responsibly make the one in June. Easy.
I should feel a bit of sadness, or a bit of regret. I instead feel relief. Complete and utter relief. My house will be clean again because I have time. I can catch up with my favorite bloggers again because I have time. I can build my stock at a normal pace because I have time. My daughter just outgrew her entire pajama wardrobe. Now I can make her some because I have time. I can start working on some new tutorials for you all to enjoy because now I have time. My 10 week pregnancy (which accounts for why I am utterly exhausted lately) has decided to sprout exceptionally early and now I am in desperate need of an entire maternity wardrobe. Which has to be drafted from scratch and then sewn because they just don't make garments in my size that are roomy enough for a bump. Now I have time.
Aaaaaah. Sometimes it's nice to just let that weight go. Don't you agree?
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